How incredible and beautiful is it that we as people have the ability to change, drastically. That past traumas can be healed, that people do not have to define you and you can be all that you were created to be. Everyone is gifted, everyone has beauty yet to be unleashed. It amazes me how uniquely different every one is and that we have all been hurt or are still hurting in one way or another. No one is greater and no one is lower. WE all bleed red, we all face trials, we all continue to mess up & get up. Life is a ride. It is a gift, sometimes bright & colorful and sometimes dark or somewhere grey, in the middle, but seasons change and people change with them. I can honestly say that every single pain that experiences in life can be turned around & fast I believe that faith is the key that unleashes pain into healing. It is a journey and with that a messy one, but surviving attack is possible. When someone attacks you it is a feeling no other. When you are numb, shaky & frozen it is a hard picture to explain or put into words, but I will say this, love changed things for me. When you meet darkness face to face, when you go to hell and back and make it out alive, it is not just surviving something, it is a miracle.
Simply just surviving isn't enough, I want to be thriving, I want to heal, to grow, to learn. When you are a survivor of abuse or whatever it may have been, you are strong and not only did you survive but, not can thrive! It is not always age that teaches all life lessons, it is experiences, be open to what others have to say! You never know what is out there until you seek for something more. Accept that you are broken, that you are flawed & not whole yet, cry, fall down if you must. Think about this: When you throw rocks into the water whether skipping them or throwing one straight into sink right to the bottom, when you skip it you know it will eventually sink and when you throw it, it will simply falls straight down. Dont just skip over things until the rock falls, throw it all in, all in or nothing. Be the rock, & out your heart into the waters, dive into love, dont be afraid of what you may find, because it may be the very thing you've been searching for, gold. Rocks are hard enough and can handle the waters, maybe you are the rock and maybe the water can be a source of life. Maybe be the rock is hard from the exhaustion of life, but the gold is refined & harder then the rock. The gold can hold you.
I am not telling you what to do, or must do, but I am saying this if you want a life full of love, happiness, pure joy and amazing things, dive into the water, swim, crawl, or dabble your feet at least, but dont stand on the shore because so much awaits the one that can step out onto the waters. It is more then a book, a religion, a sermon, a lifestyle. It is a love that will not only stand with you, it will catch you when you fall into deep. It is always there, it never leaves. There is no rush or time limit, in fact there are no limitations to what love can do. Sometimes in order to stand up, we must kneel down. Sometimes in order to go up, I must go low first. Its a parallel universe, but it is how it works. I for one want to live in the waters where I am safe even when I look upon the waves of the sea, because I know who stands ahead of me. He holds the gold, he made the gold, he is the gold. & the gold saved my life many times. Gold has to go through fire to be refined, so know this you are golden and he is gold. Sometimes the fire refines and then you come out heated, scared, but untouched, because the gold was in the fire with you so that you may come out golden yourself. I know I've mentioned this word a few times now, but it is truth!
Alot of the times the people with the roughest backgrounds, make it!
It is possible. & Good things take time!