I am continuously learning that I am no better then anyone else. Have you ever heard of super man syndrome (It is when people feel invincible when drunk). I have had my fair share of invincible drunken nights, I am not to proud of and you know what, I regret them! So many times I have heard the saying, live with no regrets, but I think the truth of the matter is we DO live with regrets. If we deny that we do not have any, we are only fooling ourselves. I could not begin to tell you the amount of regrets that I have, but the difference is now, I am realizing that I do not need to live in them and feel ashamed. That if I regret something I can look back, remember why I regretted it, learn from it and remind myself why I regret it so much so that I make sure it doesn't happen again! Bad habits are like a nasty virus, they are unhealthy, but live inside of you and once you stop fighting the virus off, it can destroy you and eventually you have to decide; I will kill it, or it will kill me (vial I know), but its true! I have scene it myself in my own life numerous times.
One thing that I know is when I have a bad habit I am trying to overcome whether it is big or small is that I cannot do it in my own strength for I am way to weak, but only in Gods strength I can overcome things I never thought I could- ever overcome. He is the only way I can go forward in my life. So many times I have walked away and given up, but every time I run back into his arms, he has not once rejected me, judged me nor forsaken me. Fear has been a battle for me (as it is for many), but God is the one who can shake up all the fear in me so that it eventually goes away completely. By, shake it up I mean that sometimes I have been put in uncomfortable situations that brought out a lot of fear in me, but it truly grew my inner person. It made me become less fearful and more faith- full because I had to face my giants.
If we focus on our victories more then we focus on our failures, life becomes simpler. It is so easy to be our own worst enemies and see the faults within more then the gifts, substance, glory and beauty that God placed into us individually. Every single person is gifted in different ways. Even the little victories are big victories, even if other people do not see the victorious you are making in your life, God does and that means ALOT. Inner success is the best success. The world thinks that money, fame, likes, jobs and surface level things in life mean success, but God looks at the heart of a person and sees the steps you take that are in the right direction. He never shames or blames, God sees weakness and makes it strong!