I am not alone, I am not forgotten, I am not afraid. These are the words that I say too myself in times of trouble. I face fears every day of my life, as all of us do, but sometimes I have to laugh at myself because the fears that arise in me are so small, but truth is, we all have those little thoughts that creep up on us, tempting us with harassing, fear. I am currently going through a process of facing fear head on and using faith to conquer my fears. Faith is one small word, with such great depth and power. Faith the size of a mustard seed has the ability to move mountains. If faith so small as a seed has the ability to do THAT (move a flipping mountain), then imagine even bigger faith, the size of a tree, the forest, the ocean. That is the faith I desire for. I want to be able to look fear straight in the face and tell it to go and leave for good. I want fear to no longer have a grip on me, because perfect love casts out all fear.
I think one fear that can really haunt me is the fear of the future not being all that I dream of, the fear of disappointment and all that I yearn for not coming to pass, but then I simply remind myself that the future is going to be good and that God intends me to have a good future, I just need to trust him in him alone. I do not think of God as an idea, or a religion, I think of him as the love of my life and the author of my of my journey. They say, everything happens for a reason (and I do not disagree), but I also believe that everything happens in a season, and that we have seasons in our life to teach us, to grow us and to mold us into the people God intended us to be (our original plan). He has nothing, but good things in store, because he is nothing, but good and a beloved father.
Some seasons we may cry a lot more than others, some seasons we may smile a lot more than others, some we may work harder in and some we may rest more in. Our lives are constantly changing and our seasons in life are constantly changing too, but when we rest in the knowledge that deep down in our hearts he has a good plan and purpose for us in our struggles, we can be at ease and at peace in our hearts, minds and bodies.
In Ecclesiastes 3, it says;
To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;