We have all made some mistakes we are not proud of. I have made numerous mistakes in my life and when I look back on them, all of a sudden I begin too feel such a great amount of disappointment within myself, but we all know regret is never a good feeling (nor a beneficial one at that). Regret will just eat you up on the inside, until it rules your thought life. I would much rather wake up each day in peace instead of dwelling on all the mistakes that I've made the day before, I want to start my days right. The truth is, Gods mercies are new every morning (Lamentations 3:22-23). Mistakes do not have to define who you are. It is so easy to become extremely hard on yourself and be your own worst critique, but the love I have experienced from God is not judgmental, harsh or critical instead, it is the opposite, he is purely grace and acceptance.
One day you may make a mistake that could affect you for the rest of your life, but God is so much greater then ANY mistake and he can heal you from the pain. It is mind boggling to me that he can forgive the unforgivable, but he is one great, divine mystery. His ways are sovereign. Does this mean to take advantage of this love and grace... nooo and I have learned this the hard way, trust me. Does this mean I still slip up sometimes, yessss, but the difference is now I can come to him being honest and real instead of hiding under self condemnation which is never from him, he never shames.
It is not easy to let go of all the heavy baggage in life that is holding you back and to be at complete peace, but I am learning too breathe his love in and breathe out all the nasty, gross and painful experiences that I have known in my heart and mind. Truth is, I have known some tragedies in my life and I have scene some hard days, but I have scene some incredible days in which out weigh the rougher ones. I have experienced some life- changing miracles through the pain- who would have known! You see, I used to think that all the bad things that happened to me were because I was being punished in some strange way, but over time God relieved too me, he was never punishing me, he was actually in deep pain, seeing me in deep pain which simply gives me chills.
Every human falls short, nobody is perfect and nobody has all the answers, but the answer to it all is his great, love. Once I saw his love through the darkness and all the wreckage, that is when my whole life changed. I am still discovering this truth every single day. I still mess up and make mistakes, who doesn't! but I continue to be in complete awe of his patience and security that he keeps giving too me with no conditions attached other then that I go to him and give it to him to carry instead; because he gives freely and takes pain away freely. Its a give and take.. It is like nothing else I have ever known.