I am a human and I make mistakes. We all have heard this, but have you ever really thought about it? I truly believe that mistakes are one of the hardest trials a human can face because mistakes can ruin a life. A mistake can end a relationship, a job and it can feel like mistakes can even ruin a future. I have made so many mistakes in my life and in my past I do not even have the time to write them all out because one; that would be a book worth of stories and two; I am not willing to spill that much out. Although I am willing to say this... I am young, but I have made so many mistakes in my life that I have learned so incredibly much from. As a kid you think that the world is endless and that whatever you dream of you can do it, but once you grow up and realize the world is not the nicest place and that just being you doesn't cut it nor does it mean you will be automatically accepted by others. Accepted what a word that is, something so many people crave to be in this world and cripple at the fear of not being it.
I used to believe that my mistakes defined who I was. I used to think that once I have failed so many times it is impossible to not fail again. I once thought that I have made so many mistakes God will not forgive me. How can he? I have messed up my life and it is unfixable. Those are the thoughts I once believed to be true and then something happened. It wasn't an epiphany or a major event, but slowly over time I began to see myself in a different light. I started to see myself the way God see's me and it changed my entire outlook on life and on myself. I used to look in the mirror and not like what was reflecting back at me, in fact I didn't even like me. I felt (key word felt) like I was a piece of dirt. Brutal- I know right? I discovered something that God kept reveling to me time and time again, I am completely accepted, but I never really got a grip on the way that I felt about myself and how it wasn't true. I really believed all the mistakes I made ruined me when in fact the truth was they shaped me.
I realized that I was hurt my friends in the past, by the feeling of ongoing failures in my life, but God kept telling me the truth that I am not a failure, I am loved. I am cherished, beautiful and all the mistakes I have made he has made right and he will turn them into the greater good and for a greater purpose. This is something that cannot even be put into words. The fact that God is so much bigger then the mistakes you make. it doesn't even faze him and all the judgements you have put on yourself or others have put on you whether it is parents, friends, failed relationships. He see's as nothing, but the past. God is mighty and he doesn't disappoint. I may not be accepted by everyone, but I am ALWAYS accepted by the one who made me. I was made in the hands of a loving father and so was everyone else!
This is not nothing, this is amazing! I am constantly in shock of the faithfulness he gives so freely and all he asks of me is to give him my garbage, my judgements and alllll of my, "my stuff," and he will show me the way. For Mathew 11:30 says, " my yolk is easy and my burden is light." All of the craziness you may feel in your mind and heart about yourself are simply not true. He wants you too feel light and he wants to carry your burdens all he desires is for you to come to him. I know that from experience his arms are always wide open, just run, run into his arms. He will not let you go, I promise. He will accept every part of who you are, the good, the bad and the ugly. All the pain you may feel or the thoughts you may have upon yourself that are simply not the truth, he will take them away because he loves his beloved children and he knows every hair on your head. Therefore he knows every, disappointment on your heart and he is able to heal you. I know a God who never rejects his kids because he protects he doesn't reject. Run to him because he cares for you!