The fact is humans experience pain every day whether we like it or not Some run from it, some hide it, some face and some try to cover pain with more self destructing pain. Suffering is inevitable, but the question that can drive us all crazy is why does God allow pain? This is something I have pondered on the last year of my life and after experiencing some emotional and physical pain myself. I now realize that he didn't want me to endure pain or watch me suffer and do absolutely nothing about it or give me this pain.
Although that is what it felt like. He actually walked me through it, he stood there with me and though God felt so hidden and unavailable to me, the truth was he was there, beside me during my hopeless nights and dark days crying with me and suffering along side. The weight I carried on my heart was heavy and at times it felt unbearable. The fear of another day tortured me, but I had glimpses of hope. It is almost felt like at certain times he was taking the anguish and carrying it for me almost as if he was lifting a bag of stones off my back and placing it on his instead.
I was on my knees more then once begging, pleading with God to fix this, I thought; "give me a solution or I am done!" I still heard nothing and the only way I new to trust in him even through the horrid darkness seemed it had invaded my life was to simply, hold onto hope. Hope is the anchor to the soul. It is the only word I can think of when I see pain and suffering in this world. Yes I definitely think that some suffer more then others and why is this? I do not know it is all a big mystery to heavy on the human mind, but one thing I do know is that at the end of this life there will be no more suffering and that is a profound hope that I can never let go of. No matter the trials that come my way. I will never let go of this one word that carries so much power.
Needless to say that doesn't mean I haven't had moments of despair and complete agony that led me to thoughts that I could no longer handle this life. All of the suffering that I have known is far to great for words because it really was like an ongoing nightmare. And I know that each person suffers differently and some seem to handle life events better then others, but doesn't make anyone stronger then another person or have better answers or better ways of life.
All are equal in the sight of God and every one is made completely different from one another. I know that for me personally after all the hardships and turmoil that has seemed to come into my life and at such a young age is not because I did something wrong or because I somehow caused it myself because God does not punish he actually lifts all punishment with grace. Every single human being will experience pain on this earth and the only way to make it to the other side of all that ongoing pain is HOPE.