When you don't know what to do with your life....

I am 21 years old and I have changed a lot in the past few years of my life. I truly believe that the ages 19-21 are some intense inner growth times. I mean everyone has a different life story, but I do think that the young adult ages are some intense years. I am still discovering more about myself daily. I have gone to school (for one year) and not completed the program I was in (due to some personal reasons after my wild year in college). Part of me now feels like I should have my life figured out or at least a boyfriend by now (isn't going to happen) ;)!

I have given up completely on the love department lately. I have also realized I want to grow more as a person before I settle into any sort of relationship. I know that I am not ready to share a life with someone yet and before I do I want to figure out what that life really, is. I have always loved working with kids and that is my passion, but after three years of doing so, multiple diapers,ongoing tears and long, draining days I am second guessing if that is something I want to do right now.

I know that money is a major part of living and an income is kind of essential, but I also know that I want to be happy with my life and I want my head to hit the pillow at the end of day knowing that I am doing something in my life that is at least enjoyable and brings not only myself, but others joy too. I am an ultra sensitive person, but I also think I am a pretty strong person given some of the life events I have had to face in the past. I am just trying to figure out what I want to do every day, have some goals and ultimately be happy with my life.